You know when you write a chapter and you can't help but re read it over and over again - still finding a smile reaching your eyes when you're reminded of those jokes you wrote, feeling your heart ache for a character, having to remind yourself to breathe when you get to an action scene?
I felt all of that when writing the next chapter of Broken Glass.
I was thrilled. I had never been so excited to publish a chapter, it all flowed together well and I knew exactly what would happen next, and I thought 'This is perfect. This is going to work. My friends are going to love this.'
And then my computer got a virus.
And it had to be taken in to get serviced.
And then I lost that chapter. That chapter I worked so hard to get perfect, that chapter that I editted and fell in love with and couldn't help but smile over. I lost it, and my own original story (which was just reaching 50,000 words in the rewrite, but I still have the first original draft which is about 100,000 words on a memory stick (thank fucking god)), along with various projects for extra credit at school.
I have a new laptop now, and it's okay... but I'm still dissapointed that I lost so much. My Dad has brought me a hard drive to put my work onto now so that it doesn't happen again, but even as I try to rewrite the chapter of Broken Glass, I can feel that it's not the same. It's kind of hard to explain, but it's like when you have to rephrase a famous quote. You can never get it to sound as good or better, it's always just that original work mixed up into a mess on paper.
But there is some good stuff coming up for me - like Hellboy said, the Hunger Games movie is coming out in March! I'm really excited; it comes out four days before my birthday here I think, so I might go with some of my friends or family to celebrate. AND the trailer for Chris Colfer's movie 'STRUCK BY LIGHTNING' was released last night! It looks so brilliant - it's going to be one of those movies that I'll never get sick of watching I think.
I'm not sure when I'll get the chance to update again and finish off the next chapter of Broken Glass, but I'm trying. I have mocks next week, and then the week after a GCSE exam, and then prep for my GCSE exams in June for a few weeks. Sigh.
Anyway, I love you all and I hope you've had a lovely 2012 so far! :D